Working Part Time!

I was very excited to get my 1st Pay check this past Friday. It's been 15 years since my last pay check!

Work is going very well and I am learning lots. I feel that I am totally where I should be and am thankful and happy.

This is me
...feeling serious and nervous and on my way to my 1st Job Interview in about 20 years! ~I survived and it was a good experience over all. There was a panel of people (4) asking me questions. I did get flustered once but was able to pull it together. I won't hear back for quite awhile re. the position (it doesn't start until June). So in the meantime...I will have to keep applying for jobs as I see them come available. *sigh*

Busy, busy, busy!

Well, I have been applying for jobs but don't have any exciting announcement just yet. Returning to the "working world" or even just thinking about it has been an emotional roller coaster for me. Yesterday, our daughter asked me how I would react if I did not get the job that I have been hoping for? My reply: I will cry. Then she asked what I would do if I DID get the job? My reply: I will cry! hahaha...

I got a call back for an interview for a job that I alluded to here. I really want this job. If I get it I will be so excited! If I don't get it I will be disappointed. I am praying that at my interview they will really see who I am and that they will also see what I am not. If I am the right kind of person for the position, then I want it. If it's not a good fit for me, then I don't want it. Anyway, my interview is next week, so I will update how it goes at a later date...

This week, a friend and I are going garden shopping. That means we will buy our seeds and dirt, etc and then come back to my house and plant. The seeds will grow (we hope) on my sunny livingroom window sill. It will be nice to have little plants ready to out in the garden, when the weather warms up!

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...seem like the weeks have just flown by since the new year.

I had a strong sense that change was coming for me in 2010. Changes that would make me uncomfortable, stretching me and make me grow. Since I had started job hunting in November it was safe to assume that there would be more job hunting in the new year with hopes of finding one and getting to announce it here on my Blog. Ha!

We are only a few weeks into the new Year and I have seen glimpses of change all ready, time and time again. Thankfully, God has been faithful to remind that:

• He loves me enough to sometimes push me when my heels drag stubbornly. I don't always want things to change. I don't always want to the one that has to change (my way of thinking or the way I do something). If I am wise, I will not resist. I will stop the heel dragging, stand up straight and walk into my inheritance and destiny.
  

A lady that I know (only 3 years older than I), died in late December after a long fight with Cancer. Before she died, she made a point to tell all of us to live fully and with NO REGRETS. In this time of great change I am reminding myself of her wise words and trying not to let fear of change hold me back.

• "Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

I formally applied for a job yesterday. A job that would be really challenging for me. A job reaching out to people in crisis, woman who are lost, confused and in many cases broken. A job that would require me to be driving (I do not have my license), public speaking, leading small woman's groups and listening to heartbreaking tales of individuals. I would have the weighty privileged of holding hearts!

Do you think sometimes we are afraid to succeed? I am. My husband is a great listener. He is very patient to let me talk a blue streak. I talked his ear off last night. I was telling him that I thought that this job was just too hard, too stretching. What if it broke me?! And wouldn't bagging people's groceries be just about right for me after all? He looked at me and said: "Sounds like you are quitting an amazing job even before you get it." What?!! Yep, he was right. I am not afraid to fail. I am afraid to succeed! I am totally fine if I don't get this job but I will be terrified to get this job! HA! Weird so weird...

I do not know how many others have applied for this job. I am guessing that the others will be much more qualified than I! I have no clue if I will get this job or not. What I do know, is that if it's offered to me I will take it and trust that God will equip me! I will try my best not to be terrified. I will be strong and courageous.

I may end up bagging your groceries after all but I know it really isn't the point of what I am learning right now. I am changing, I will change and I will try not to resist it as much as I have in the past. It's not easy. It isn't safe. But oh man...it is GOOD!

Join me in living with no regrets!